Random Astrology

“Who Died and Made You Judge & Jury? Saturn!”

Within 2 months, I’ve been asked to serve as a juror, community judge, mentor & promoted to election judge. I’ve accepted almost all of these responsibilities. Almost all.

My progressed Ascendant is in Capricorn, the ultimate sign of social law, management, judgment. It is ruled by Saturn, the planet that symbolizes “our inner government”, our restrictions, our maturation process, and the karmic consequences of our actions (& non-actions).

My natal Saturn is in the 9th house of higher courts, learning, philosophy, how we make sense of what we experience. I used to have nightmares of false accusations without having the proof to save my life moral integrity. Of course, the fact that my natal Saturn in cataloguing Virgo is sextile my packrat 8th house Cancer Sun is proof enough that those worries were for naught. (I have a stellar emotional and photographic memory…and I’ve lived long enough to know that Truth always comes to Light.)

But Saturn squares my easily distracted multitasking Gemini Mars, demanding that I stop collecting an endless amount of (maybe irrelevant) information, develop my own opinion and pass judgment. Gemini is the Eternal Student, The Objective Reporter, Peter Pan…

I want to stay in fact-finding mode but the Universe says “You are qualified. Graduate already! Be the advisor, the teacher, the judge, the adult in the room.” If I pay discerning attention to the lessons that I’ve learned, then I receive the reward of knowing what I need to know when I need to know it - and how to access that information to share with others…on a need-to-know basis.

Throughout my entire 1st Saturn Return, I battled 3 tickets in traffic court (the post about that experience is around here somewhere if you’re curious) and learned a great deal about my strengths and challenges. One of the cops who gave me a ticket literally died…but the judge dismissed my request for dismissal on that basis. That fact didn’t save me…but my obvious respect (reverence) for the legal system (and the judge, by proxy), spending my childhood studying my attorney father in court, admitting my errors, finding others’ detail-and-documentation errors did.

Now, instead of avoiding details or detailed communication with people who induce headaches (hi Mars in the 6th house!) with the hope that they’ll repair themselves (or magically disappear), I immediately respond to the issue - with a healthy amount of caution.

So THEY try to make me go to jury (9th house), but I say no, no, no. I filled out the paperwork (Virgo) on the day that I received the summons with proof to justify (9th house) my NO (Saturn). Saturn rules my 2nd and 3rd houses and is currently traveling through my 11th house, so you can guess my refusal reasons. ;)

“Be faithful in small things because it is in them that your strength lies.” ~ Mother Teresa (Sun Virgo)

“If you haven’t come to a place of peace within yourself, then you haven’t reached the truth, yet.” ~ Rev. Deborah

Distinction between the truth and being right about the facts:

“If you’re right about the facts but still disturbed, then something is wrong, including wrong with you. Because the truth is big enough to have everybody in it.”

What’s Saturn doing in your Libra house? What is He asking you to balance to become an official Grownup? Are you enjoying His visit or is He an unwanted guest there?

RE: "Mars, Neptune, and Orgasm Addiction: Holding and Sharing Your Sexual Energies" →

“When we orgasm, we are depleting our life force and vitality. Through ejaculation and the heaving, energetic releases of orgasm we lose life force. The reason we lose life force is very simple: the explosion is designed to create a new life form. For men, especially, habitual orgasms can be incredibly hard on the adrenals and the kidneys. In the art of Chinese medicine and acupuncture, men are encouraged to orgasm at certain spaced out intervals so as not to drain their life force too often, which is thought to create stress and disease in the body. After an orgasm there is a certain period of time that is needed for the body to recover its sexual “charge.” Often, we do not take the time and give ourselves the space to heal and rebuild our sexual energy. In the beginning of our relationships, the newness of the dynamic helps us to recover our sexual charge more quickly. However, as time presses on and familiarity sets in, the negative results of orgasm dependency start showing up.

The Signs of Orgasm Dependency

The first sign of orgasm dependency is irritation or clinginess, in extremes. When our life force is drained repeatedly, without recovery time and without the inclusion of prolonged bonding behavior during intercourse, we become agitated. We can either project this agitation onto our partner, or we can internalize it. Projected, we can only see the most irritating qualities in our partners. Where they were once idyllic and perfect, now they are less attractive and even aggravating. For some people, even the touch of a partner when the life force is drained can bring up strong feelings of resentment and irritation. On the other hand if the depletion of the sexual energy is internalized, we can feel needy, insecure, clingy and jealous.

In my counseling practice I’ve noticed (although it is sometimes the opposite) that women internalize the feeling of depletion whereas men project it. This creates the typical post-sexual exhaustion scenario: man seems distant, irritated, and unattracted while the woman seems clingy, insecure, and possessive. Although the manifestations are very different, they are both symptoms of the depletion of sexual energy in each partner. Oftentimes this dynamic leads to intense fighting, which in turn arouses the passions again and enables another round of vigorous intercourse. However, after time, the compulsive sexual dynamic wears down to the point where the relationship needs something new (pornography, an open door policy, etc.) and, if it’s not found, cheating often happens or the relationship simply ends.”

With Neptune in the 1st, ruler of the 1st in the 8th aspecting 7th house Mars (which rules my 5th house and 12th) and Pluto and 3 planets in the 8th and…let’s just say that I can relate to, and personally confirm, this entire article. Extended Celibacy has been extremely empowering for me. I used to wonder why my sexual partners would seem addicted to me, clingy, jealous and more “feminine” after we had sex. So emotionally draining…but now I see it was also physiologically draining, too. Breaking up = relief. It’s always a struggle to permanently detach (my 1st lover still keeps in touch though it’s been over a decade since we broke up), but soooo worth it to get my freedom (which I now realize means building up my energetic reserves).

Then I had to wonder why I couldn’t break up sooner even though I felt bone tired. It always took me quitting a job, graduating from school, crisis…endings for me to see that the reason for my fatigue was The Boyfriend - not all the other things on my plate (my Gemini Mars actually needs MANY projects to juggle for me to feel energized and my partners always inevitably interfered with that).

This reminds me of Whitney Houston’s infamous 2002 “Crack is wack!” interview with Diane Sawyer in which she responds to the question is she addicted to drugs with she’s addicted to love, making love…

That answer seems delusional until you read this article. Both Whitney and Bobby have Mars(sex)-Neptune(addiction), with Bobby’s aspect a conjunction in SCORPIO (sign of sex, death and sex + death = orgasm). Add to this Whitney’s Moon in Aries (need for IMMEDIATE SELF-GRATIFICATION) trine Venus in Leo (an addiction to love/adoration) and Mars in co-dependent Libra (her sister-in-law said Whitney became addicted to a masturbation-drugs cycle when separated from Bobby).

She also had Pisces Rising and Neptune in Scorpio. In 1992, she said all she wants to do on tour is sleep and listen to music on her headphones (music rejuvenates Neptunian people). And her best friend (rumored lover) for years writing that Whitney was tired of carrying so many people the day after she died, breaking a decades-long silence. One has to wonder if she was unconsciously sabotaging her career to get more energy rather than break up with Bobby (who she was trying to use as an energy renewal source, so she drained him with her Saturn conj. his Sun in Aquarius in her 12th house. See him frequently stepping outside the marriage while she remained faithful). Her chart was heavily other-oriented with the majority of energy in the 7th(stellium including her Sun!) and 8th houses.

Her daughter, Bobbi Kristina (Sun in Pisces trine Mars in Cancer, Venus in Aries and Neptune in the 8th) seems to be traveling down the same compulsive path as her parents, jumping into an engagement with the boy Whitney informally adopted - and clinging to him in all of their pics together. With Saturn ruling his chart, Bobby seems to have gotten some of his addictions under control for now…

One of Whitney’s most passionate performances is “All the Man I Need” in her 1991 HBO concert. She lifted people out of their seats in ecstasy and had to calm them down post-climax of the song with cooing pillow talk. It perfectly illustrates energy exchange in the 7th and 8th houses. After viewing that performance, one can easily understand why she was so tired after a concert.

My Hypothesis: Whether a person projects, internalizes or exhibits a combo of sexual energy (which includes counseling people and reading other people’s charts) depletion depends on the Sun, ASC, Mars and Pluto sign(s).

"Astrology, Karma & You" →

For people who want a general, yet individualized answer to the “what is my life’s purpose?” question, this site features descriptions of the North Nodes in houses that explain the soul’s “assignment” in this lifetime. Have your chart handy.

Astrology allows us to see ourselves as an expression of a system of interactive energies and forces that give rise to various types of actions and reactions. Its advanced study also reveals how we may look upon our lives more objectively and even to grasp the universality of our being. Astrology asks us to envision a larger picture of the cosmos rather then one only seen through the limited lens of our personalities. Once we open ourselves to our true nature, we may then understand that we are connected as one human family to the Family of the planets and stars.

The purpose of our own life and that of the Life of the solar system is the same—the evolution of consciousness. In terms of human existence, this evolution demonstrates through a growing, deepening and ever expanding sense of self-awareness. At a certain point in our development—different for each and every one of us—we come to know ourselves as an extension of universal creativity. Along with this revelation comes a great gift: unconditional love. That love takes on real meaning and power for us when we can express it creatively in some highly individualized, focused way. We are then “tapped in” to our creative source and have a direct line of communication and connection to our real inner potency and strength.

Alan Oken

He had me at “we come to know ourselves as an extension of universal creativity”.

Faith vs. Reason

In one study, the researchers correlated participants’ performance on a test of analytic thinking with measures of their religious belief. The thinking task included three problems requiring participants to analytically override their initial intuition. For example, one question asked: “A bat and a ball cost $1.10 in total. The bat costs $1 more than the ball. How much does the ball cost?” The immediate, intuitive response is 10 cents. Those who take the time to figure out the right answer (5 cents) are judged to be more analytical, and these people tended to score lower on the measures of religious belief.

From “Losing Your Religion? Analytic Thinking Weakens Religious Belief”

The people who concern me are those who answer $.10 but aren’t curious about finding out why $.10 is incorrect, stick with $.10 even when told that is incorrect or get angry that you “tricked” them. Study them. Those are your potential cultists, zealots and suicide bombers.

Case in point:

An ex has Rising and 4 planets in air signs, 4 planets in water, 2 planets in fire and 0 planets in earth. We broke up because he was constantly accusing me of cheating (I wasn’t). His “evidence” was nothing substantial, just a feeling. But his feeling was based on tuning into my exasperation with him (and constant thoughts of breaking up). His Moon, Mercury, Jupiter and Uranus either conjoins or trines my Sun, Moon and Uranus (among other connections; our charts look like 20 people are playing a game of Twister when you overlay them).

Every time he spoke with his friend (with a water Sun who was distraught over his girlfriend’s cheating), he would come back convinced that I was cheating and try to control my every move and become my conjoined twin. Coincidentally (?), we both have Mars in the sign of the Twins. Eventually, his lack of trust and inability to give me breathing room led me to break up with him and immediately hook up with someone else…who has only 1 planet in air and 5 in water because I felt understood. Was his feeling correct at the time? No. Was it a foreshadowing? Maybe. He felt like I cheated on him even though I had officially broken up with him.

10 years later…

10 years ago, this conversation would not have went like this. He was going through his Saturn Return. The period when Saturn returns to the sign that it was in at our birth is a chance for us to become more grounded by reviewing our grasp of reality up to that point. He was feeling insecure about his reasoning ability (his Saturn is in Gemini), his ability to keep me interested in our relationship long-term and his own doubts about his ability to be faithful - not to mention his standing in the world (another Saturn concern). He didn’t know what or whom to trust. He would constantly flip-flop between trusting me, his intuition, the Bible, friends…

Our faith vs. reason arguments were endless (our Ascendants are opposing signs).

I see a lot of growth in him (and in myself). At some point, one must learn to balance faith with reason.

Whenever that faith-reason balance happens, there are no more arguments within or with others.

This post is brought to you by Venus in Gemini, Mars in Virgo and Neptune in Pisces transiting near you.